Why worry?

In our universe a star explodes and dies every single second and there's you, worrying about work tomorrow. — Blu Mar Ten (@BluMarTen) May 31, 2015   This tweet here by @BlueMarTen makes one wonder what they are even worrying about when the universe itself is so full of life and death. Personally, I think its human nature to worry! I could be wrong – but even at a young age we begin the process of worry. We worry if we are going to do well… We worry if we are going to fail… We worry about a future we have very little control over… We worry about life and death.  So why worry? Think about it like this… whether you worry or not something is going to happen! Did you prepare to the best of your ability? Did you seek help when you really should have? Did you try your best? Well… then let it happen. No need to

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Imperfect

On this day for #intropoetry we are to write about imperfections… I will share a poem I wrote not so long ago about the way we see our selves and accomplishments. I hope you enjoy it. 08/12/2015 I am a failure! I failed at being the child my mother wanted, she reminded me regularly of the imposition in her life that I was. I failed at protecting myself from abuse of all kinds. I failed at protecting myself from the demons that would haunt me my entire life. I failed at understanding that the life I was in was not the way the world should be. I have failed to be the parent I should have. I failed to read stories to my children before bed.  I failed to cook my children their breakfasts in the mornings. I failed to have all my children graduate from high school.  I failed to have all my children attend college, then get married

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Where the worlds I create are created…

On most given days this is where you will find me working and writing. There are those random moments when I get to sit outside and enjoy nature and write, those are not as often as I’d like. For those who don’t know I not only blog but I am a writer. I mostly write fantasy / paranormal for young adults and teens (very PG13) so my writing nook is very precious to me. Let me show you my other favorite spot.  See that old orange chair with the blanket over the back. in the corner.. that was my great-grandmothers chair… I obtained it after my mother passed away and that little corner is the other spot I write (and crochet and cross-stitch…I think you get the idea).  So these are  my spots. When I first moved to Texas I would perch myself on the porch in a chair with my feet up and write there while the spring air

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Nevermore…

 And the Raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door;     And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon’s that is dreaming,     And the lamp-light o’er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor; And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor             Shall be lifted—nevermore! – Edgar Allen Poe Now, I’m sure I didn’t need to tell you that was Poe’s last verse of The Raven… however, this poem is what changed me. Okay, all of Poe’s work changed me. He was dark and even mysterious in his ways and this helped me be okay with my own darkness. You see we all have demons we battle, here Poe is obviously battling the loss of Lenore and that demon was harsh on him. My battles are near similar and yet different enough to be my own unique ones. I let my demons

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Pain

The darkness of the night is brighter than the pain of the soul You close your eyes and see nothing No joy, no happiness, no pleasure Walking lost through the darkness, you can not find your way Seeing nothing, feeling nothing you just exist….. Existing is not living~ To live you must open your eyes and see the world in front of you Take the moment and breathe it in Allow your soul to awaken and become vibrant with all life can give you All you have to do is be willing to accept be willing to try and take that step See the love that flows like a river around you Feel the kindness that floats about like the clouds in the sky Open yourself and live written November 10, 2011 about a journey of pain and learning that you are truly surrounded by those who love you, even when you don’t always see them. A journey of struggling

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The world before you.

When you stand with the world before you what will you do? Will you follow the beaten path of others or make your own way? How will you decide: Gut instinct or the lessons taught to you telling you the direction to turn? You’re all grown up now stepping out on your own. Your only plan is to be on your own, start a life of your own, go places and see things. A life of your own design . But where shall you go? What shall you do? Take a step, think of all you were taught, then take another step and another and another. Before you know it you have begun to build upon that foundation your family set before you. What did you do? Where did you go? How did you choose? Did you look back? Always remember, not too many steps away are the ones you love… who helped you build that foundation you are building upon.

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CHOICE

This one word speaks abundantly to me. Why? Well, we all have a choice. A choice we make or don’t make. We choose to cross the road or stand on the edge and watch traffic. I think this word speaks so loudly to me is because no matter whether you have hope, regret, abundance, home or anything else – you have a choice. I made a choice to get married young and start a family. I made a choice to get divorced and years later remarry and try again. I made a choice to move across country and back and then back across again. No one forced me. No one gave me no alternative. I had the choice. I made the choice to write, share, and try to inspire. I make the choice to stay in touch or be kind or even be distant. The thing with choice is we can’t really regret something we did – it was by

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Things I’ve Learned…

Today I share with you a list, compilation, of the things I’ve learned. Now these things are not just what I learned today or yesterday, but over the last 40+ years of my life. Ever think of what your list may be? Here are my top ten things I’ve learned… Appreciate each morsel of food you have, you never know when you will miss a meal cause you can not afford one or you chose to give it to someone else. Love all of your family – even the ones you really don’t get along with! After all, they are where you come from, what you reflect upon, and what your future depends on. Respect any one who has lived longer you! They have more time invested on this world and can share that information or hoard it. Be nice – that info could help you out. No matter how hard life is… someone has it worse. Appreciate life! Each

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Why I write…

Why do you write? This is a question I’ve been asked quite a bit over time. My only answer is because I have to. The words are there and they need to said, written.  Many times the words come to me and fight with me to put pen to paper, or even in todays world finger to screen. Writing for me is very natural – always has been. I began writing very early in life, around age eleven. I didn’t write stories like most kids who were creating battles and having the princess saved, no I was writing dark emotional poems. There has always been this dark shadow cast over my life, heart, mind and soul… I learned to embrace this, allow it grow and consume me. My life has been full of storms and I embrace them as well. Those storms are what give me my ability to take the emotions and scenery and create them with word for

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