It’s never easy to keep everything in check in life, when life runs amuck.
Since the near beginning of February Ive been struggling… really struggling. You see I discovered a major deception going on in my life and it shattered my world. I won’t discuss the details, because its very personal, but I will say that the world I knew is not the world I know now.
It has affected me so strongly that I’ve written less than 1.5k words in anything… I am supposed to have a book coming out April 15th – I had to push it back and now may have to cancel.
I was working on a crochet sweater and haven’t picked up the yarn in a month.
I destroyed or got rid of so much stuff in anger and frustration – downsizing is a coping mechanism for myself. And when I say downsize… I mean I threw things away I had for more than twenty years.
I bought myself a journal to log my emotions daily so I can reflect where I am and where I am going. The trust that was broken will take years to rebuild and even then it will never be the same. The love that was destroyed will never fully recover but in the end, I am doing everything I need to do to move past this situation.
My biggest problem is the lies. There have been so many lies that now I question everything! There is not a day that goes by that I can forget about the betrayal and devastation that happened. Not a night goes by that I don’t see that betrayal in my mind’s eye.
How do you cope when you are betrayed and lied to? I’d love some advice or hear your stories…