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On this day for #intropoetry we are to write about imperfections… I will share a poem I wrote not so long ago about the way we see our selves and accomplishments. I hope you enjoy it.

08/12/2015

I am a failure!

I failed at being the child my mother wanted, she reminded me regularly of the imposition in her life that I was.

I failed at protecting myself from abuse of all kinds.

I failed at protecting myself from the demons that would haunt me my entire life.

I failed at understanding that the life I was in was not the way the world should be.

I have failed to be the parent I should have.

I failed to read stories to my children before bed. 

I failed to cook my children their breakfasts in the mornings.

I failed to have all my children graduate from high school. 

I failed to have all my children attend college, then get married then have children.

I failed to see the pain of my son who attempted suicide from major depression.

I failed to see the difference in my son and seek help. 

I failed to have a successful career.

I have failed at understanding what love is.

I failed at marriage resulting in two divorces.

I failed financially, resulting in financial disaster.

I failed to speak to my mother for years, she is dead now. 

I failed to be a compassionate parent and mother.

In this life, I am a failure!

I am a success!

I succeeded at graduating high school, when neither of my parents did. 

I succeeded at graduating college when I was told I would never be able to.

I succeeded in never letting my children go hungry, even though I skipped meals.

I succeeded in making sure they never went without their needs, even when I would.

I succeeded in putting my children first in all I do in life, even when there were things I wanted for myself. 

I succeeded at helping my child heal and learn to live with depression and have a productive life.

I succeeded at learning to accept my physical appearance when all my life I was told how imperfect I was.

I succeeded at surviving abuse and overcome the abusers in my life.

I succeeded at connecting with my child after years of distress.

I succeeded at allowing forgiveness in my heart so I could eventually love again.

I succeeded at overcoming the demons that haunted me.

I succeeded at finding the peace to know that I can’t fix what happened, only work on what will come.

I succeeded in not falling into the same cycle of life I was raised in.

I succeeded at allowing love in.

I succeeded at writing and self-published 7 novellas, a dream of mine as a young teen.

I succeeded at having a happy marriage and finding peace.

I succeeded over all my failures.

In this life, I am a success!

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